Well first I am SSSOOOOOO excited! Heather set up this blog for me on my 40th birthday as a gift! I couldn't access it because she forgot the password. HAHA We tried changing it etc. Couldn't get in! You would think just get a new one, right? Not sentimental me! I wanted this one! I liked it, she created it for me and I loved the title. So In the midst of my crazy life full of emotion today I had a God moment and started an email as I often do to share and ask for prayer. I thought again, wow I wish I had a blog. I thought well ill go to the one and just try it. OMG... It worked, it let me on. : ) Thanks God for little favors that make you ever so excited. So here goes my first post in Wendy's World.... Hope you enjoy or aren't extremely tired after I fill your head with the drama of my 6 year old challenge.
So as I sat today completely overwhelmed and stumped in parenting 101.. (is there such a thing???) I received an email. A bit of back ground. Maddie is struggling going back to school. OK who am I kidding, she isn't struggling going back, she has always seemed to struggle if I'm not going or sometimes even if I am. We have times where she runs right off and could care less if I'm in tow and then other times complete insecurity. She will show an amazing side of security, braveness, and I'll show you and then there is this side. I don't understand it, cant relate to it, and definitely am not condoning it. I have always told my kids "step out of the box, enjoy the moment, try something new" I never take the same route twice to go home. I don't get the anxiety of trying something new and just not pushing through the tough part to enjoy the other side. So after 9 days of 1st grade, crying everyday. She woke up at 6am crying again, missing Daddy (who is out of town) and begging not to have to go. When she is there she loves it, has friends, knows all the staff, has special big girl jobs, interjects, and seems completely comfortable from what I see. However.... the 3 hours of crying before hand came to an end when she vomited in my car on the way to school... Cute as button, in her little blue checker skirt, Mickey mouse slip ons and hair bow to match and she is throwing up in my front seat. : /
So as any I guess Mean mom would do, I handed her a cup and a towel and let her know she needed to finish so we could get into class. : / It took all I had to not just turn around and go home. It would have been easier to have her lay on the couch all day and not have to deal with all the drama. After 1 1/2 hours in her class, no more throwing up I decided it was time to quit putting off the inevitable... I had to leave. Did not go over well. I ended up talking to the principle, the school psych, and the teacher because I just don't know what else to do. They all proceeded to tell me I am doing everything right, keep pressing forward, and if I needed them they were there to help. OK 1st- if I'm doing everything right, WHY AM I DEALING WITH THIS AFTER 4 YEARS. 2nd-YES I need them, that's why I went looking for them all. LOL
So with all that said here is the email I received today...
Laugh Together
Son to mom: “How many psychologists does it take to change a light bulb?”
Mom: I don’t know, how many?
Son: “None, a light bulb has to decide to change itself.”
HHHMMMM..... Maybe she has to decide to change herself.
More of the email..
Life Has Issues!
For me it has been a battle to keep “choosin joy” this month: My computer crashed and lost all my data – despite an elaborate back up system we had in place! No computer or files for 2 weeks. Then to retrieve the most recent files (including an entire book I was ready to turn in ironically entitled, LOL with God: Text Messages from Heaven—a humorous devotional), I had to write a fat check (who wants to write a check for data retrieval? Or tires, or a washer repair job? But we need them all, don’t we?) Then I sent a son to college and that is emotional—and expensive. In this same checking account draining week, everything we owned broke: the sprinkler system, car, air conditioner, ceiling fan, ice maker, etc . . .To keep a smile on my face, I have had to keep pumping in the joy producers—things that help me trust God and keep a positive life outlook. Here’s a look at a few tools of the “joy trade” I used this month:
(Joy Point: Keep hope at the end of your responsibility tunnel!)
In my journal: "Truly, truly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do, he will do also; and greater works than these he will do; because I go to the Father. John 14:12.
(Joy point: Be in step with the Spirit and watch and see exciting things God can do through you!)(Joy Point: How we hand hassles and adversity is part of the legacy we leave.)
(Joy Point: Review God’s faithfulness.)
(Joy Point: Keep trying!)
[Joy Point: 'Well done, good and faithful servant, You were faithful with a few things, I will put you in charge of many things; (Matt 25:21)]
Keep Choosin Joy!
So with all my tears I shed today walking off campus, being completely overwhelmed, having no answers for the little one I gave life to and am supposed to have answers for. I am going to choose joy!
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